May 2010
1 post
una mezcla de mis sentidos.
All graduated and grown up now, yet it doesn’t feel like it. I will be returning to school, because unfortunately a Biology major these days doesn’t really call for much of a decent salary job - however, I don’t know what I’m going to do anymore! For the first time in my life. Medschool was always on the horizon, because I made it so. And 4 years + countless poor...
February 2010
1 post
“I’m not afraid to try again. I just don’t want to get hurt again for the...”
January 2010
10 posts
i hate this
my sleep schedule is going to be so fucked up for this semester.
“if someone wants to be a part of your life, they’ll make an effort to be...”
...
counting down the days until my sister leaves this house and rids us of her presence for 3+ months until she realizes she cannot get a job and comes home forever. i’m going to take advantage of the heaven that these next couple months will be without her.
insanity.
i’ve kept myself on lockdown for…it has been about 3 weeks now. i have not progressed anywhere NEAR where i should be with my MCAT studying and it is three weeks from tomorrow. all this self torture and seeing my friends a total of 3 times this break has been useless. if i move this exam back, im cutting out at least half of the schools i can apply to for the masters programs i want...
October 2009
12 posts
screwed
so instead of studying/doing my assignment worth 10% of my grade, i’m going to write here for a little while. going out last night, especially like that, made me miss him far more than i expected. i’m not ready as much as i would like to be, to be moving on just yet it seems. i need to learn to be alone but how long is this going to take? last time in a couple months i wasnt thinking...
loveyourchaos:
owltreethree:
zoee:
Death Cab...
“i want to be free of you. the way you, obviously, are free of me.”
– Count of Monte Cristo
random uno
my ankle is swollen, my legs feel like i’ve worked them out for 24 hours straight and my arms are sore. wooo homecoming. i love to dance, dont get me wrong - it definitely releases my stress and keeps my mind off things which i especially need now. but there’s so many other things going on I need to focus on. I have an exam Thursday that i literally need to ace to have a chance to do...
over.
you know, i’m sitting here and thinking how fast this has happened. the past five times were, as i’ve said, nothing like this one. those took me months to even bring myself to give my number to anyone because it didnt feel right. now, for some reason, i feel free again. maybe i miss dating, i don’t know. i think ultimately i miss being cared about - and i never got that from him....
“he’s like a curse he’s like a drug, you’ll get addicted to his...”
“I used to believe in forever, but forever’s too good to be true.
-...”
“It’s very tempting when you really want to be with someone to settle for...”
a new beginning
so after what could have possibly been the worst weekend of my life i think im starting to progress from it. this time is nothing like the last five times. i dont necessarily feel at peace, as i can hear him saying those words to me, but i feel okay. i’m sad and actually really angry, but i’m trying to channel that elsewhere. i dont need help, or resources, or people to talk to...